I was writing my answers to Friday 5 (last week) and it got me thinking about something and this topic I never thought I would ever talk about. OK you ready for it? MARRIAGE. Yeah that's right, I said that supposedly awful word in a guys life.
Now until about 6 months ago I never thought I would get married, the thought of one woman for the rest of my life was plain scary and I was always wondering if the grass was greener on the other side. The more I think about it, I think it was the person I was with at the time really scared me. I was somewhat content with her but never really wanted to settle down, let alone have kids. Well that all changed when I met Sarah; I can really see myself settling down and raising a family.
Its even got to the point now I wanna contribute to our wedding plans and give Sarah her dream wedding. One of the big things that's changed with it is I really wanna be apart of the planning process. Now ultimately it is the brides day but I really want it to be our day and it be something we both will remember for the rest of our lives.
Most of my memories in my head that always will remember are sports related, like I can tell you exactly every goal in my two hockey championships. I can even go right down to every last detail. now those memories are being added to by Sarah. Things like our first kiss, how we met and the first time we made love. At first I was scared of these memories cause of my manly ego was trying to tell me this is what should be here. (none of this sappy stuff)
Now I wonder if I'm getting older (nearly 30!) and feel the need to start a family or am I truly, deeply in love for the first time in my life. It is a little scary to think about because my lives worries are taking a backseat to that of Sarahs. I now am more concerned about her worries, her fears and trying to make her as happy as I am when I'm with her (looks over shoulder for the sap police).
I know she is struggling with her ambition and what she wants to do with her career and life for that matter. I really wanna be there when she figures it out (I know she will). I really hate to see her suffering over it and really hurts me inside to see it. The best thing I can tell Sarah is be patient and it will come to you. So I sit here writing about marriage and my undying love for someone. I'm beginning to wonder if I'm crazy, but all I have to is look over to her baby blue eyes and I know its all worth it in the end.
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